"KASIH"

Andai KASIH sehebat sang suria,
Tetapkan is hilang di kala hujan,
Andai KASIH seindah rembulan,
Akan tiba masanya ia pergi,
Andai KASIH setenang lautan,
Gelora yang datang tiada dijanji.

Kuharap KASIH kekal abadi,
Tiada sempurna tanpa ILAHI,
Kopohon kasihku kekal selamanya,
Namun ketentuanNYA tiada kuduga,
Kudratku kuat namun hatiku tak berdaya,
Menongkah arus KASIH yang mudah goyah.

Biar seribu kata kuungkapkan,
Andai KASIH bukan lagi milikku,
Ku hanya mampu melihat ia pergi,
Hatiku pedih jiwaku lara,
Kehendak TUHAN tetap ku relakan.

Biar berair mata,
Ku yakin jalan ILAHI,
Doa kupanjat mohon petunjuk dariNYA
Andai ia benar terbaik untukku,
Kurelakan KASIHku pergi~

nurkilan:
nur syaza kholim

=kELirU=

hye...i've been very busy menguruskan anak2 yang baru lahir..sampai kembar 4...huhu...dah la si ibunye xnk menyusukan ank dia..naseb baik ada ibu tumpang..ngee:D
skrg dah lama xkuar umah sbb jadi baby sitter to my lovely rabbit..wuhuuu...love them very much even penat gak la nk uruskan diorng ngn perangai mcm2...
Anyway...for the time im at home baby sitting nih...i got some confusing but yet i dunno wut it is..my heart not feeling good..it seems there is something wrong somewhere...
am I missing something?
Or am I feel uncomfortable with something?
IM trying to be far apart and im not thinking bout it..it helps a bit..
but there is still something I need and i didn't get it yet...
Ataupun this is the balasan for wut i've done wrong before...Im too bad in the past and still bad now..never changed...when i realize now..umur dah nk masuk 22 tahun...but im stil me before..nothing better..worse lagi ade la kot...im trying to be better..but it just not the time yet for me to totally change myself...

::I MISS SOMETHING or is it SOMEONE::
no one knows wut ever will happen next...just pray for the BEST..only ALLAH knows wat is the best for all of us~
semoga segala kekeliruan dan kekusutan yang bertandang nih akan segera pergi~

do pray for me...adios amigos~~

:my love:

30 DISEMBER 2009..detik yang aku nantikan...sepanjang aku kt nz adek aku kta arnab yg aku bela dah bpe kali beranak..tp malang skali anak tuh xsempat hidup lama..mungkin xsihat kot..ataupun adek2 aku kurang mahir dlm penjagaan anak arnab..lagipon adek2 aku ngah fokus nk exam...so xleh fokus sgt kt arnab nih...bila aku nmpk JOYAH (arnab adik aku) mcm nk beranak..aku ngn addek laki aku pon asingkn dia kt sangkar len..mmg btol sangkaan kitrng..sok nye dia beranak..2 ekor..but ktrng terlambat tgk...dia dah makan kaki anak dia yg sekor tuh...sbb anak dia kecik2 je...xsihat kot sbb dia pon xsht sgt...so kitrng selamatkn anak dia yg sekor lagi nih...
skrg baby arnab tuh da dlm sangkar hamster adek aku yg telah dimakan kucing..ktrng jga dia baik2 sbb nk tgk dia besar..huhu..yg nih wrna putih...tp bila lahir kulit dia merah..comel n kecik sgt...



::3 days-yang kilat2 tuh sbb dah tumbuh bulu::

tiap2 ari aku ngn adek laki aku akan bw dia g minum susu badan kt mak dia blakang umah aku...sbb dia dok dlm bilik adek aku...mata dia xleh buka lagi tp dia pandai carik kt mna mak dia n mne nk minum susu..huhu...skrg umo dia dah 8hari..bulu dia dah byk..putih gebu je...dia pon dah gemok..berat gak angkat dia..dia still menyusu and mate pejam lagi..kalo ikutkan blog2 kt tenet pasal arnab nih..dia akn mula buka mata bila umo dia sepuluh or sebelas hari...xlama dah tuh...skrg nih dia xeti dok diam kalo jaga dri tdo...tp asyek tdo je la..lepas minum je mesti kencing pastu msuk dlm sangkar dia tdo...mlm2 dia mula la dok main2...dah la jln tonggek2...comel sgt...harap2 dia leh membesar jdi arnab dewasa..aku sempat jga dia smpai almost 2 bulan...heheh..sonok nye...


::nih pix dia yg berumur 8 ari::

2010:PATH FOR MAKING LIFE BETTER

As time goes so FAST for 2009..and i juz realize that for the whole year of 2009 i juz post 2 entry in this blog..i've been so busy with STUDY and 'EVERYTHING' til i forget about this page..
however PAST IS PAST...
you should not regret for wut happen in the PAST..
take it as EXPERIENCE of LIFE that you NEVER forget..
all the TROUBLE YOU make and PROBLEMS you face should be as your LIMIT to start a BETTER LIFE in 2010..

MOST people love to set their GOAL for every year coming..
NOT for ME as i just want to be a BETTER PERSON every year..
BETTER from YESTERDAY...
BETTER from LAST WEEK...
BETTER from LAST MONTH..and
BETTER from LAST YEAR..

How do I know if I am a BETTEr person or not each day?

1~ LOOK at PEOPLE around YOU...are they the same person as yesterday? if you got new frenz then YOU MIGHT be a better person..BUT WAIT..you have to MAKE SURE your old frenz still WITH YOU~!!

2~EVERY NIGHT before you sleep RECALL all your doings..SO you will know you are doing better or NOT~

3~ALWAYS BE A POSITIVE THINKER TO PEOPLE AROUND YOU..as you never think negatively about people..you will PROBABLY less making people 'hating' you..

4~ DON'T HESITATE TO ASK FOR HELP IF YOU NEED IT~"malu bertanya sesat jalan

However..to be a better person is REALLY HARD as I have to sacrifice many things that i love..but then NO SACRIFICE NO VICTORY~!!

I really hope 2010 will have a better path for me to be a better person in YOUR EYES!

c ya~~Gud NITe~~!zzZZ